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The original was posted on /r/transmedical by /u/adjwic on 2024-10-31 16:04:23+00:00.

I’m thinking of coming off of my testosterone. I hate even having to consider this but my genetics are against me. I knew the risks when I started and I will gladly suffer them so that my dysphoria doesn’t end me but now my health is taking a turn for the worst and I just might have to. After years of denying even being trans, i started my transition in 2021. Mentally, I’ve never felt better. I can actually see a future that involves me now. My depression is damn near nonexistent. I’ve even come to terms with the fact that I’ll unfortunately never be able to afford the surgeries I want, but that’s okay because I can look in the mirror now. I don’t go days without talking because I can’t stand the sound of my voice. I can shower and show my face outside. I’ve got man stink and ass hair now. I’ve almost got a mustache to go with my beard. I’m terrified of having my dysphoria return to the level it was. I literally had one foot in the grave. I want to live. I want to live as the man that I am.

I’m considering coming off of T because my physical health is suffering. My high blood pressure is steadily rising, my cholesterol has gone back up, I’ve got to get in with a cardiologist but I can’t afford it. I’m scheduled for an mri to check to see if I’ve been having small strokes?? I’m having a litany of symptoms and no one seems to want to look past my hormones to see if anything else is going on. I’m scared, im tired, im annoyed. I’m playing doctor tag and no one seems to give a shit.