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The original was posted on /r/detrans by /u/daftmunk on 2023-10-05 02:26:44.

Growing up, the older I got, the more I felt I was different from other young women and more similar to men. I felt like I had a masculine brain, but I knew it would sound sexist and someone would challenge me if I said it. I felt distress from believing I didn’t fit in.

But the older I’ve got and better I’ve gotten at critical thinking, the less different I’ve felt from other women. Online, I can’t tell the gender of someone who’s posted something. From my experiences on testosterone, I do believe some psychological differences between the sexes are biological. But overall, men and women are more similar than different, and there are a lot of androgynous people. I actually do fit in.

I attended a women’s Bible study today. I was nervous they’d think I looked like a man. It went okay. At first, I felt like I was more masculine than everyone else in the Zoom call, but I challenged that thought. I had no rational reason to believe it. I don’t know any of those people. Somehow, I learned to assume that I’m more masculine than other women. I don’t know where it came from. But when I think about it, the only thing about me that’s more masculine than them is how I dress.

I transitioned because I felt like I didn’t fit in, but I do fit in.