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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Emergency_Simple_264 on 2023-10-05 18:46:40.

When I was about 8 years old, I was raped (dry humped) by my brother. My brother was about 15 years old at the time probably. This went on for about 6 months maybe. I remember he raped me about maybe like 20 times or more within that time frame.

Today, I’m 25 (26 in 4 more days). I moved out of my parents house, and I’m glad I did, because my brother is a real piece of shit and my dad can be one too. My brother is emotionally abusive to his 1 yr old son; he yells at him a lot for crying; he’d tell his son to shut the fuck up and stuff like that.

Anyways, recently, I went to the doctors, and I got diagnosed with a hernia. I told my mom about the hernia, and that I wanted to stay with them for a while until I got my surgery and stuff. So I’ve been living with my parents for a while now; I had the surgery, and now I’m waiting until I heal so I can get another job and move out again (I got termimated from my last job, and the lease was up at the apartment).

My brother makes very weird remarks and “sex jokes” I guess idk. They make me uncomfortable, and he keeps saying stuff like this, regardless of how I respond (or don’t respond). He only does this really when I am alone in the room with him. The other day, I was in the kitchen. He was the only one in the kitchen with me. I was having a troubling time because I was having compulsions from OCD that I have. I wasn’t talking to him either. I notice that he’ll make his weird sex “jokes” when I’m having anxiety about something, or right after he offends me in some way. He’d say stuff like this when I’m in vulnerable positions. Anyways, so then he said “it’s ok ______(my name), I love you”. And then I heard him say something like “you can suck a dick later”; he said that part like a lot more quietly. He says “it’s ok” right after he offends me in some way. He says it in like a creepy caring tone of voice too.

The other day, I was eating popcorn chicken, and he said something like “you’re eating little balls there”. Like I was just tryna eat. Another time he said something weird was years ago. I used to chew food with my mouth open (I don’t anymore) and he would make fun of me for doing it. He would say “sucking on that dick”. It would make me feel weird because I was just tryna eat; not imagine a dick in my mouth. He says more stuff, but I don’t always remember exactly everything he says.

What do y’all think? Do you think he’s actually joking, or is he disguising seriousness as a joke?