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The original was posted on /r/aspergers by /u/bigthrowawayboss on 2023-10-06 08:58:12.

Growing up, I often spoke before thinking. As a result, I’d say something incredibly dumb or weird in front of my peers and not realize it until their negative reaction or enough time passed to where I was able to process what I said. As a result, I learned to just shut myself off and stay quiet.

Even now at age 31, I still sometimes end up embarrassing myself over things I say in the moment. It’s like my brain doesn’t have ability to process and filter out awkward and dumb things to say like other people. Back when I was a kid, I was made fun of or criticized for it. As an adult, people are polite but deep down I know they’re weirded out.

I just constantly think back on how much I’ve embarrassed myself in social situations over the years which is a very degrading experience. I wish I didn’t have to constantly plan what to say and think twice before I say anything. Are there any other autistics out there who can relate?