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The original was posted on /r/cfs by /u/Alarmed_History on 2024-08-05 21:51:27+00:00.

I looked at a couple of old pictures of myself, because I wanted to send them to a friend… and it broke me. So bad.

I’m trying hard not to cry and get over emotional as I am already in a bad state physically, I’m currently in PMS and that always makes everything worse for me.

Seeing that picture was like having a bucket of ice dropped on me while at the same time being stabbed in the gut.

I was happy, full of life, pretty… I will never feel full of life or pretty again, and that is something I have not been able to come to terms with.

I know that it’s stupid and frivolous, with all the struggles this hell of an illness brings, but I miss looking in the mirror and seeing someone I recognize, I miss feeling comfortable in a painless body, and I miss feeling pretty.

Needed to get this thoughts out of my head.