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The original was posted on /r/newzealand by /u/Lazy_Library311 on 2024-09-11 19:50:47+00:00.

Long story as short as possible… I remember sitting with my mum at the pub with a razzy and coke and a pack of salt n Vinny’s watching her tap away on the poker machines ( literally poker) that’s all they had in the early 90s I think it’s had me since then… I’m approaching 40 rapidly and gambling had literally ruined my life completely. I have had times chunks if months or years without gambling and they were most definitely the best times, I know I should look at that and use it for motivation but after losing my mum in 2019 my life had just kept going in a downward spiral hitting rock bottom and basically staying there. I feel hopeless as a mother money is already tight and I just make it worse, I feel like I have 0 control over anything anymore. I have reached out to numerous agencies PGF, city mission, my doctor and have also asked for budgeting help even total money management because that’s what I need, the family I do have already treat me like I’m a piece of shit so I won’t ask them for help… The biggest predicament I have is that I only gamble online now and it’s just really accessable even if I take all the precautions I can still find a way… any helpful advice is appreciated.