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The original was posted on /r/cfs by /u/trying_my_best- on 2024-11-17 01:37:51+00:00.

I’ve had a hard few days and ended up in the hospital yesterday. My mom took me and was upset the entire time. I completely understand, she was exhausted and had to take her daughter to the hospital and wait hours and hours, except she didn’t have to. I told her to go home so many times to rest. She refused and kept getting more upset at me.

For context I am an adult but am fully dependent on her as I cannot work and do not have a degree yet. I feel worthless to her. She’s been getting more and more upset at me if I’m not immediately able to do what she wants me to do. She gives me the silent treatment and I apologize again and again as I push my body past its limits to appease her.

She chastises my grandmother for talking about my body and weight (I’ve had eating disorders for years) but then turns around and does the same thing. It’s hard, I can’t cook most of the time so I have no choice but to eat prepackaged food. I’m just trying to survive. She says I would probably feel better if I ate better. I know, I probably would but it’s either this or starving.

I think she thinks I’m depressed and spending all my time in my room. I’m having crashes and exhausted which I try to verbalize. I can’t have any confrontation with her about this because it’ll lead to a fight. “You always criticize me” “I’m trying my best” then tears. I love her but she simultaneously is asking way too much of me and helicopter parenting me.

Has anyone else experienced difficulty family dynamics like this? I apologize for posting a lot lately y’all are just the only people who understand. ❤️‍🩹

TLDR: My mom has been making comments on my weight, ability to do things, and eating habits. I can’t confront her without a full blown fight which I don’t want. I’m an adult but fully dependent on her. I try my best but it’s never good enough and she’s frequently upset and angry at me. Have any of you experienced something similar? How did you deal with it?