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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Equivalent_Seesaw309 on 2023-09-06 20:26:22.

My husband and I have been married just over a year. When we first started dating, I made it clear that him watching porn was an issue with me. I know that for a lot of women it isn’t, but I can’t help but to feel insecure with the idea that I’m not enough for him. And the idea of him seeking random naked women makes me sick. He had no issue when I brought this up and said that he would stop immediately.

Now I am 8 months pregnant with our daughter. I was looking through his banking statement on his phone to see if we could afford a nice car seat that I’ve had my eye on and I saw a purchase from OnlyFans. The charge was from the day of our baby shower and I saw other recent OF purchases when I searched into it more. I also found screenshots of girls from Instagram in his hidden photo album on his phone. Now, I have been very vocal with my body images these last few months. I’ve always been very thin my entire life, so now that I’m 8 months pregnant I can’t help but to feel huge and disgusting and he knows this. I’ve tried to initiate intimacy a few times but he always says that he’s too tired (he’s now admitted that it was because he had already gotten off to this content while I was at work). He barley touches me anymore which was making me feel even worse about my body issues.

I confronted him as soon as I saw the charge and he seemed very sorry. He said that he couldn’t help “giving into temptation” but that it won’t happen again. The whole situation makes me so sick to my stomach. I know that many will say that porn is natural and that guys will be guys. I don’t know if it’s just my pregnancy hormones making this such a big deal for me.

Am I being irrational to have this boundary? I can’t help but to think that he will start up again and just keep it better hidden from me. I’m not too sure how to feel at the moment and how to move past this.