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The original was posted on /r/ask_detransition by /u/Outrageous-Duck8667 on 2023-09-06 15:16:24.

In 2016 I was drugged and roped into a human trafficking ring. I won’t go into the details of how they got me in, but I was kept subdued by psychiatric medication through all 4 years I was there. They found me when I had been about to enter into my junior year of college and I was doing very well! I was dealing with some anxiety but I was living off campus with a friend and her son, I was taking summer classes, I was managing my ADHD, able to take care of myself, maintaining a wonderful relationship and I was close with my family. Right away I was taken to a new primary care provider and was being prescribed a known harmful anti-depressant and being given other medication by the traffickers without doctors knowledge. I was forced to break off my relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years, forced to socially isolate myself, worked 12 hour days in their store front for no pay, and was forced to denounce my family and cut contact with everyone I knew. In 2017 I ended up in a Psychiatric hospital and being told that I had grabbed a gun and was waving it at other members of the household. I was told I had tried to overdose with pain pills and I had no memory of any of these events. I don’t remember throwing a tantrum, I don’t remember threatening anyone. So if I had really done these things and I had no memory of them, then the Psych hospital was where I needed to be! The doctor I was assigned to gave me a different anti-depressant along with some more medication and I was released 10 days later. The traffickers talked me into going home with my mother which I did. But the entire way home they were constantly texting me and using love bombing techniques. Being now what I recognize as both over and improperly medicated, I ran back to them with very few of my belongings. I don’t remember very much of the next year. But by November of 2019 I was on a cocktail of 13 psychiatric medications, GI medications, Testosterone, I had been starved at points, misdiagnosed with Manic Bipolar, had a vehicle put in my name I was unable to drive, I had been forced to go without utilities, had been threatened with homelessness, sexually abused, physically abused, manipulated, financially exploited, work trafficked, witnessed the traffickers attempt to force transition a 5 year old girl, Had my head shaved, had my service dog taken out of my care and given to another member of the household (That person and I arranged that I would do the care and she would lie). When the traffickers decided to get a cat that I was allergic to and insist that it sleep in the bed with “us.” I was forced to sleep on the couch downstairs for over 3 months. That’s when I started to wake up. I went to visit some friends down south where I had my first Psychadelic experience and I realized I didn’t want any of this! That’s when I made the decision to start planning for my freedom. When I was put on the testosterone, it was weird! The doctor had 2 meetings with me 1 week apart. On the second meeting he prescribed .3ml injection once every 4 days. The traffickers, one of whom was trans, said that would take me too long to go through Menopause, so he gave me 1ml every 5 days. There was never any discussion or documentation requested from my therapist and I never went into that doctors office without the traffickers. Before I went on my vacation I had the traffickers show me how to do my own injections. I then started having someone who could do it fill the syringe for me then I would take it in the bathroom and only inject about half into my thigh. The other half I would shoot into the toilet. I knew that I didn’t want it anymore, but I didn’t know if it was ok to just stop. Around the same time I started lowering the dose of T, I noticed I was having more and more stomach issues. These issues led to throwing up everything I ate every day and I ended up in the hospital on Valentines Day. I didn’t mind though, the people who tattooed me and said I was their partner had never done anything for me for any occasion, so I wasn’t expecting anything. Once I was back home with my family, my doctor there said I could stop the injections if I wanted to and I had already stopped taking the psychiatric medications except one. But then I started noticing horrible pain in my right side. We thought it was my Appendix but that was fine. I was miserable! We started slowly taking away and slowly reintroducing different anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medications. Everything was worse than the last! And my stomach was still hurting. I was throwing up every day still and starting to lose a lot of weight very fast. I was also becoming afraid to eat. So why is all of this relevant to my question of why I need help? All of a sudden, I showed up with over 30 different food allergies. And nothing you can avoid! Soy, Rice, Potato, Milk, most tree nuts, sunflower, most seasonings especially garlic, all vegetables with a skin, Chicken, Shellfish, eggs, coconut, melons and grapes! We were able to find out that the tomato allergy runs in my biological family, and I’ve never really liked tomatoes anyway, so that one’s fine. But before I was forced through menopause, I had never had any food allergies ever. I had belly troubles because of bullying I endured during school but no other medical issues in the slightest. And milk? As a child my parents had to stop me from drinking half a gallon a day! I was doing some other research and was able to find that women sometimes notice food allergies pop up after going through menopause and it has to do with Estrogen acting as a histamine so when the estrogen levels lower and testosterone levels rise people can notice some changes in their GI track. Then when people introduce the hormone therapies to help, food or seasonal allergies are exacerbated. My question is have anyone else noticed any food allergies come fast and hard once you ended use of the testosterone? Did they ever go away? I have thought about going to a trans clinic that’s in the area, but the traffickers and I are still in the same state and they are very connected with their local trans community; I don’t want to run into anyone who possibly could know them. Thank you so much for reading this entire post. I appreciate any and all advice. I’ve now unintentionally lost 60 pounds and my hair is getting very thin. I take supplements to stay out of the hospital for being malnourished.