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The original was posted on /r/truscum by /u/Ripaille on 2025-10-17 16:52:01+00:00.

This endocrinologist is a trans woman herself, and she explained to me that in her eyes, we are more evolved beings than cisgender people. I shared this here because I never really understood what she was getting at, and at the time, it shocked me deeply. I must have looked at her with a look on her face that didn’t please her, because I saw that she understood that I wasn’t getting into her delirium at all. It was at that moment that I understood that there was a real gap between the LGBT community and me.

For a while, I wondered if I was the problem. I even ended up questioning being trans, wondering if it wasn’t all just an act, something made up.

Since taking hormones, I hardly have any dysphoria, except when I don’t feel comfortable enough in my clothes or when I’m naked. But even then, I told myself that maybe it was just big hang-ups. As long as I don’t see my body, everything is fine, because in my head I don’t have a chest, and I have a penis. Because of this, I questioned the very fact of being trans and the reality of dysphoria.

My brother-in-law and my sister, who are believers (me too) and rather conspiracy theorists, managed to make me doubt even more. They made me believe that all of this was a manipulation to pervert us further. I detransitioned for a day because of that.

I went out into the street as a woman, I have a rather androgynous face so shaved and with a little makeup, I looked every bit like a woman. It took me two weeks to get over it. It was the worst crisis of my life. I wanted to die because it was so unbearable. It was that day that I understood that they were completely wrong, and that dysphoria was very real.

I just didn’t understand why so many trans people seemed so dysphoric, or why some seemed shallow, dramatic, almost caricatured. One day, I wanted to talk about it on a general public forum, expressing what seemed illogical to me, and my post was deleted for “harassment”.

I realized I was trans about six years ago, when the discourse around it was starting to become more and more extreme. I knew it suddenly: I told myself that I was a man and that it was not normal to be born a woman. I didn’t even know what being trans meant yet. While searching, I understood that it corresponded to what I had been experiencing for a long time.

Unfortunately, in the beginning, I absorbed a lot of LGBT ideology. But I always felt that certain speeches did not hold water. This feeling was reinforced when I started hanging out in trans circles and hearing absurd things, like “trans guys being lesbians”.

I found this group about a year ago, and since then I’ve completely stopped questioning myself. I finally made peace with my transition, because I understood that it was a disorder that I could ease with a transition. There is probably no other effective treatment. And I also understood that the LGBT community, as a whole, was a beautiful illusion, and that many people who are supposed to represent trans people are not themselves trans.

In short, I sincerely want to thank this group for existing. Thank you, because I think I would still be completely lost without it.

I would love to read other people’s testimonials. If you have had similar experiences, how have the “tucute” speeches affected you? How did you feel discovering this group and realizing that you weren’t alone in thinking differently? Especially those who, like me, discovered the transition through these environments.