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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/Whipped-_-cream on 2023-09-10 18:44:32.

First time poster, long time lurker… I’m (42f) currently the primary caregiver to my husband (49m) with metastatic melanoma. His cancer started in his arm in 2020 and has now spread virtually everywhere. His prognosis is dire. Since getting discharged from hospital yesterday, I have had to lift him to help get him standing and give him 9 injections a day. I organize his medication and meals & now have to supervise his walking, as he had a fall before getting discharged from hospital. Today he mentioned potentially picking a date himself for the end of his life. I am completely heartbroken at the thought of losing my husband. We only met in 2017 and it feels so unfair to lose him already. I cry all the time & have gotten really good at silent crying so he doesn’t hear me and get sad for making me sad.

So far I’m managing everything, but I’m getting to the point where I need to reach out to internet strangers (in my fav subreddit community) for encouragement and support to help me keep going.