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The original was posted on /r/velo by /u/SirHustlerEsq on 2023-09-19 20:50:18.

I’ve been training quite diligently, 15-20 hours per week for almost 2 years. My FTP has increased about 80w, I’m way way way faster by every measure, and yet my motivation is fleeting. I really enjoyed racing CX, enjoyed being competitive as a cat-4 and now dipping my toe into cat-3 racing, but CX is dying and it seems that all that’s left is gravel. There is hardly any racing in “gravel”, just shame for finishing hours behind the pros and no real feel for “racing” going on; I don’t want a finisher medal, I want to race someone. I guess I sort of feel dumb about it, I’m doing all this work and I’m sort of an embarrassment.

There is no good riding here unless you fight cars for flat land so “riding for fun” is not really a thing.

Is this the natural progression, am I done?