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The original was posted on /r/transeducate by /u/Breech_Loader on 2023-07-02 14:16:05.

I know this is a trans-board, but there’s something I’m realising by talking to you all. It’s not something you’ve ‘convinced’ me of. It’s just something I’m realising.

I don’t think I’m straight.

I’ve been looking things up, and talking in places, and watching fun videos. And I’m increasingly certain that I’m actually an Asexual. And the more I look back at my life, I’m realising I always have been. And if I can always have been, then you can always have been.

I was afraid of ‘admitting’ it because I was afraid of being alone.

The sex I had was never particuarly fulfilling - not for my ex and not for me. It was just that He - actually She - realised sooner, while I became the villain who caused all the problems. The only people who sympathised were other transphobes - but now I know I wasn’t necesserily talking to people who hated you, just people who didn’t understand you, like me. I wound up with Alphabet Issues the length of my arm.

I still think some of the articles you sent are SOOOO biased. I still think some people are way too sensitive. But I don’t have to stop thinking that just because I’m Asexual, because being Asexual doesn’t change who I really am. I’m not broken, and neither are you.

Thanks to you all, I’m coming to terms with the fact that my sexuality doesn’t matter, and if my sexuality doesn’t matter, neither does yours. It’s only as important as we want it to be.

The things I’ve always known were true, finally make sense.

I’ve even commissioned myself some art to depict my realisation (I love art!) and I found DOZENS of people willing to draw my request. Of course I could only pick one, but the fact that so many people were willing to listen has given me so much hope.

I know I still have my issues. I know you’ve only known me a couple of days. But now I’m coming to terms with my own sexuality, it’s like my other issues are flowing away like drainwater.

Thankyou, from the bottom of my heart.