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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/jupitersalien on 2023-09-26 11:16:16.

Preface, I am about to be 31 in a couple of months and have been menstruating since I was in 5th or 6th grade (so 11-12 for me) and I used to really want to get my period before that, cause that was the “cool adult thing” to have according to my stupid preteen brain. But now over the years, I’ve started to have this hate about having them. I honestly feel like I’m not supposed to have them. Like I don’t want kids, so why should my body be producing a thing that is for that? I also don’t want any reproductive parts of my vagina, only the feel good parts. I also have been brainwashed by society in thinking that periods are gross and vile. Especially by an ex boyfriend who refused to have sex with me when I was menstruating. It doesn’t help that my Nexplanon birth control makes me have like weeks long periods so I can be bleeding almost all month sometimes.

I hate having periods so much and wish I didn’t have them. Like lemme trade off that and the reproductive parts for a futa cock or something I can grow, keep the feel good hole part though, cause that’s the only use for my vagina. Like how can I be okay and accepting a bodily function I don’t even want and hate having cause it reminds me of something completely unnecessary for me. How can I be okay with a bodily function where society has shamed and made it like it’s the exact same thing as urinating, defecating, and vomiting. Hell I don’t even like going to the bathroom because it’s gross and I wish I didn’t pee or poop. Or had the ability to vomit cause that’s gross and traumatizing. I just don’t know how to be okay with all of this. I hate it. I am tired of it. I wish I didn’t have these things. And I wish I could go back in time and beat the shit outta preteen me being all “omg I wish I could get my period! I’ll finally be a grown woman!” blah blah blah. Like bitch you don’t know how fucking disgusting this shit is, and how you will have it until you are old and rotten at age 40!

Any advice on how to be okay with this shit?