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The original was posted on /r/twoxchromosomes by /u/shortasiam on 2023-10-02 03:19:16.

I’m currently 5 months pregnant with my first kid and I’ve just been reflecting on how vulnerable pregnancy truly is. My husband and I have an amazing relationship. We’re best friends completely, respect each other, we haven’t had a fight in almost 2 years (knock on wood). We’ve worked really hard on our communication and I’m really proud of the relationship we’ve created and maintained.

However, due to some changed at work he’s been insanely busy and stressed. Also since we’re about to have a baby, he’s been saying yes to every event that comes up trying to see his friends and get new experiences while he can. Plus his work changes have led to him having to travel and do more evening networking. He’s exhausted and stressed and I KNOW he would much rather be home with me.

I on the other hand have super slowed down at work and all my close friends are having very serious personal crisises at once and aren’t really available physically or emotionally right now. Besides this I’m more of a home body anyways and my energy isn’t the best.

I know logically that all of this is temporary, that my husband loves me, he does so much for me, took over all household chores during the first trimester when I was feeling awful. We are together all day 2-4 days a week, since we both work from home and he has to go in twice a week at most.

Yet, I feel so completely abandoned and scared every moment he’s not completely emotionally engaged with me. I watched hesitate for less than half a second on a picture of a hot girl on Instagram and started bawling. Between the pregnancy hormones and my ADHD I don’t remember what I’m doing from one second to another. If someone wanted to gaslight me right now… I would be completely defenceless.

All this is to say, I’m so damn grateful I have a partner I trust right now and I never truly appreciated until now how completely vulnerable pregnancy makes you.